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A Life Update With Natasha

Good morning. Well, I’m not sure it’s the morning where you are, but at the time of writing this, it’s 9:18 am. Before I dive into my life update let’s set the scene. My house is quiet, and I’m watching the ever-changing lights on my tree in the corner. I’m relaxed and at peace. At this moment. Before I dive too deep into today’s post, I wanted to take a moment to remind you about some of my other posts. You guys know how much it means to me when you click to read, spend time on a page, share it, etc. Thank you so much.

A Life Update with Natasha

Now that we got that out of the way let’s get down to business. How have I been? I’ve been spending a lot of time alone. My weekends used to be spent with my parents and making sure my mom was okay, and now they’re spent lounging on the couch, playing video games with my kids, and making memories with my family. My life has changed. I credit it to the pandemic, to be honest. With all the restrictions in place, I was left alone. I saw other families breaking the rules just to be together, and I won’t lie. . I sort of wished mine would do that. It felt like my family picked when the restrictions were important and to be followed and when they weren’t. If you know me, then you know I like everything the same. I like rules, boundaries, and expectations. So when sometimes things were okay and sometimes they weren’t, it grew more and more challenging for me. So, I stepped away.

I went through a lot during that time. I lost my dog, struggled with my oldest, and tried to make sense of the thoughts in my head. The way we lost our dog was tragic and traumatic, all wrapped up in a bow, and I still carry so much guilt and sadness around it. But it felt like people judged me. Or maybe I judged myself. But the easiest thing was to run away. Retreat. To somewhere safe. To run away from things that can be unexpected. I don’t like surprises.

Then, I couldn’t walk. My sciatic nerve pain crippled me. I slept on the couch because I couldn’t walk down the stairs. It was a lonely, terrifying time. And, guess how many times my family visited me? The family that I used to spend my weekends with. Zero. We (my husband, kids, and I) figured out how to manage my injury and have everyone taken care of even though I couldn’t walk. Nobody came to help. It made me realize that I don’t have anyone. I have myself. I need to be okay with myself.

And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. I’ve been spending time with my thoughts and learning how to be uncomfortable with them but remain stable. Oh, and there are many thoughts that bring me to my knees. I’ve been working on my mental strength and willingness to do the work. To overcome trauma and become a better person. A person more at peace. A more compassionate and empathetic person.

Work Update

I’ve been freelance writing for the last year and a half. I do it full-time, and I”m really enjoying it. I’m still trying to make my blog better too. I enjoy writing articles on topics like mental health, health and wellness, cannabis, and personal and self-development. So, if you need a writer, you know who to call! Lol, just kidding; I don’t answer phone calls. Text/email only.

Reading Update

I’ve been trying to get back into reading. Can someone recommend a super great book? I’m having trouble finding something to hold my interest for any length of time.

Weather Update

There’s snow. Two days ago, everything was green, and now everything is painted with sparkly magic. Yes, I love snow. I love snow until January, and then I’m miserable. But yay for two months of cheer.

Podcast Update

I am a big fan of podcasts and have found a few new ones that I’m obsessed with. 

Christmas Shopping Update

I am almost completely done with Christmas shopping. Usually, I am still wrapping presents and shopping on Christmas Eve. I don’t enjoy the chaos that brings, so I wanted to do things differently this year. I’ve partially decorated my house. Just waiting for the inspiration to set the tree up. The theme is red and white. Do you guys do a theme? Do your decorations go all matchy matchy?

Skincare Update

With the colder weather comes a different skincare routine. I’ve spent the last year or so working on a skincare routine and learning how to take care of my skin. Of course most of my knowledge comes from the skin care icon The Skinny Confidential but here are some things that I find work well.

Finally

I’m in a good place. I feel happy and stable for the most part. Is there anything else you’re wondering? Any questions you have? Let me know in the comment section below.

Love always, natasha

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8 Comments

  1. Nafisa

    November 15, 2022 at 8:35 pm

    Sending you warmth. Happy for you that you had found your place.

  2. Thrift Plan Enjoy

    November 13, 2022 at 1:58 pm

    Thanks for writing such an honest post.
    In with you on the family point. If they can’t be there for you, why bother! It’s great you’re focusing on your own family.

    1. natasha

      November 15, 2022 at 9:01 am

      Thank you so much for reading and commenting 💜

  3. Fransic verso

    November 13, 2022 at 8:31 am

    Awww, I’m sorry about your injury. It’s surely ok to have yourself but you need to have people around you. Good for extra support. You are a really brave Natasha and a strong woman. I wish I can support you with anything. I’m glad you are stable.

    1. natasha

      November 13, 2022 at 8:44 am

      Thank you so much friend. I appreciate your kind words.💜

    2. natasha

      November 15, 2022 at 9:02 am

      Thank you so much for being here and being a constant support. Sending love and light your way friend.💜

  4. Kristina

    November 12, 2022 at 4:23 pm

    I’m so sorry.. we went through the same thing when mother was sick. Though my family has long since be broken up, we always visited my dad side of the family more- and when mother got sick and couldn’t work, so just dad brought the money, many turned their nose at us. Because many were well off with paying jobs and we were struggling 😬. Decades later, whenever mother got surgeries for her dialysis, I was the one who took care of her, ever since I was 17.

    I’m happy that you found your place ❤️ Very true that we mostly just have ourselves, that’s the only certainity.

    1. natasha

      November 13, 2022 at 8:45 am

      Sending love and light your way💜

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