Do you ever hear that voice in your head that is constantly knocking you down?
That one that tries to convince you that you can`t do anything right. That wicked one that taunts and hackles you.
That voice that convinces you you are worthless.
That you will never be good enough. It convinces you that you have failed on every account, and really, there is no sense in you trying anymore.
I definitely hear that voice. All the time. Actually, every minute of every day and it is always telling me to not even bother trying anymore, because I will simply fail.
It tells me that success is not even possible. And by success, I just mean simplicity. To live simply, fully, and happily. That is just not something I can do.
Do you have the inner meanie as I call it? That one voice in your head that you wish would simply stop. You would do anything if it meant that it would be quiet.
My inner meanie is always there. It is always pulling me back from the step forward I can occasionally take. The step forward that I can find strength to take from here to there.
Your Inner Meanie is that voice inside of you that questions everything about you and makes you feel inadequate. It may not always be there. Perhaps it may not always be loud. Your inner meanie may whisper so softly that it leaves you wondering if it was there in the first place. It can leave you questioning. It can leave you questioning your entire being.
Your inner meanie knows you from every angle and knows all your weaknesses and strengths. It can take every part of you and turn it on you, making you an enemy of yourself.
I think the goal of the inner meanie is to do just that, to turn you against you, and eventually it can end up destroying you.
I`m sure it`s there with the intent to protect.
With the intent to make sure we make good choices. With the intent to keep us safe. Regardless of it`s intent, because of how it works, it tends to hurt us in the process of it all.
On the map from point A to point B, you inner meanie makes you take 100 detours and circle around many times before it allows you to arrive. Upon arriving, you are now filled with dread, anxiety and desperation.
It is a vicious unfair cycle.
So what can we do?
I think taking the time to listen to that voice is helpful, and to really hear what it is saying, and making the effort to understand the `why`. Also, take a few moments and try to appreciate that that voice is only trying to keep you safe. Although it often may be more annoying than helpful, it is just a version of you trying to help you navigate.
At times, it is likely helping you navigate in a completely wrong direction, and I think that`s when self-talk can be so helpful. If you can re-direct it, and help it understand the `why` then in time, you can train the inner meanie to only talk when it is actually needed.
Can you relate to any of this? Share your experience below!
Love Always, N
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