I first started taking it 3 months post-partum from my last baby. That was 4 years ago. Taking medication at that time, felt like the utmost failure. It was something I was very insecure about. I took myself off, and ended up in the hospital. (I actually wrote a blog series about that beginning with this post – Hopeless, Hurt, Lost, and Defeated.) The doctors put me back on it, and once again I’m now on the journey of taking myself back off. I wanted to talk about the drug, and share some knowledge with you, and then, I’ll tell you why I’m stopping.
Setraline, also known as Zoloft, is an antidepressant of the selective serotonin reputake inhibitor class.
It is used to treat a number of things such as, depression, panic attacks, obsessive compulsive disorder, premenstrual dysphoric disorder and social anxiety. More commonly known as SSRI’s, they work by blocking the reabsorption of serotonin into neurons in the brain. Serotonin is the key hormone that stabilizes your mood, feelings of well-being and happiness.
Beginning the journey with Setraline was incredibly difficult for me.
I experienced side effects such as clenched jaw, extreme drowsiness, and well, basically felt some strange version of high/drunk for the first week at least. In time, the side effects subsided and Setraline was great in my life. Stopping, coming off of Setraline has brought extreme drowsiness and severe mood instability. It’s been hard af. Some common side effects of Setraline are, diarrhea, dizziness, tremors, and so many more. Some common side effects of withdrawal are flu-like symptoms, dizziness, irritability, headaches and more. So, it kind of sucks no matter what, much like many other drugs.
If you read my blog regularly, then you know last week I had a doctors appointment that did not bring good news or support.
If you’re a first time reader, HELLO and thank you for being here!! Also, here is last weeks blog post explaining about the doctors appointment – Hello Hopelessness. I See You. With my husbands help/support, I’ve made the decision to come off of the Setraline. I was prescribed Setraline to treat my anxiety. Over the last few months my anxiety has sky rocketed and been extremely difficult to live with. I don’t see the point in taking a medication that is clearly not doing what it used to do.
“Zoloft (Sertraline) Side Effects of Long Term
The following negative effects are related to Zoloft:Changed Curiosity about Having Sexual Intercourse
Incapability to Have an Erection
Persistent Difficulty Sleeping
Feel As If Vomiting
Acidity and Gas
Extreme Abs Ache
Lack of Hunger
Trouble with Ejaculation
Weight Reduction” 1
In my head, and I am not a doctor so please do not take this as advice, this medication had an extensive list of side effects and was no longer providing me relief. It was time for it to go.
I’m now 4 days into this journey. I’ve experienced intense moods, and am so thankful for my husbands unconditional love and support. I’ve experienced less anxiety though. I’m extremely tired, and I’ve been napping during the afternoons just to make it through the day. And, I don’t feel guilty about it. And here’s why –
Why should anyone feel guilty for doing what they need to do in order to be healthy, rested, and emotionally stable?
Once I asked myself that, the guilt quickly flew out the window. In order to be a good mom, and a good mompreneur , I need to be rested and focused. I can’t do either of those roles well if I’m exhausted. I think it’s important to show my kids that I take care of me. It’s important to ME to take care of me. I’m learning to listen to what my body is saying and honor it.
Setraline did in fact give me a couple years where anxiety wasn’t holding me captive.
I was able to experience things like summer fairs, family gatherings, and even play dates for the kids. But, it’s no longer serving me. I’m going to be learning some anxiety tools along with practicing being mindful and adding meditation into my life. Do you have suggestions of what I could do to calm down?
Sending all the love to you.
Love Always, Enn
1- Information taken from a health website and can be found at this link.
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