And, in a blink of an eye, what worked yesterday, is no longer working today. (I actually wrote a post about that, which you can find over here Morning Routines)
I find that this can get so discouraging. Never knowing what the next day is going to bring, or if you are mentally ready for it.
This month has been so busy for me.
I made a solid attempt at BlogTober (which you can read about here – Good-Bye BlogTober), and it did not go the way I had anticipated. I ended up exhausted and without any inspiration what so ever.
In October I took up a new hobby, which did not mix well with my medication, and I was left with a hard choice.
I started attending Taekwondo classes. It has always been a dream of mine to learn a martial art, and I grew so tired of feeling like it was never going to happen. I came to the conclusion that I needed to start making my dreams happen.
I think in life there are always SO many other things that we could be doing, we often miss out on doing the things we want.
Becoming a black belt has always been on my mind, but I was never in a position where I could devote time, money, or energy to it. I didn`t have that available to devote to myself.
I took the plunge in October, and tried it out.
Though I felt quite silly, going into the class knowing NOTHING, I quickly learned. I`ve been practising and stretching every single day, and I have come to really love it.
I have practised a lot of various high intensity work outs, but training in Taekwondo is unlike anything I have ever tried. It takes high intensity to a completely other level, and it is a lot of fast-paced movements.
When I`m in class, I focus 100% on me, and I didn`t listen to my body when it said slow down.
And, it said it so many times. I fell in love with the sport, and with wanting to be better. I fell in love with wanting to train harder, and be a better athlete.
I started growing dizzy during training. I would see black dots all over the place, and sort of give my head a shake, and keep going.
At the end of a class one Thursday evening I passed out.
I got too dizzy. It was an intense class, right before competition (which I did not go to), but I worked hard during the class. There was a lot of STAND UP, sit down, STAND UP, sit down, and my body couldn`t take it.
I left the class feeling defeated, and embarrassed.
A quick google search of the side-effects of my medication helped everything to make sense. One was low-blood pressure.
After talking with my pharmacist and my doctor, I was faced with a decision. Do I continue taking a medication that is working for me, and stop Taekwondo, or do I continue Taekwondo and change medications?
Let me first tell you, I`ve never had a hobby. Taekwondo made me feel strong and powerful.
But, trying a new medication is scary stuff. You never know how long it will be to find one that affects your body positively.
I chose Taekwondo.
I can`t imagine not training anymore. It has become such a large and beautiful part of my life. So, I have started a new medication, and am working through the crappy side-effects at the beginning.
I think that it`s okay to accept limitations, but sometimes maybe you need to challenge yourself. Finding something I loved, and brought me so much happiness was so surprising for me. Once I experienced it, I really did not want to let it go.
Having anxiety, there are many things I avoid just for the better of my mental health, but Taekwondo wasn`t going to be another one.
So, I am on the path to starting a new medication. Again. How have your experiences been with that?