I love me a good personal post, so go get your coffee/tea, and cozy up!
You’re in for a treat! The story of Thoughts with N is a story of passion, belief, and a lot of hard work. On both the blog, but on me too.
Four years ago, I was in the car with my husband on Pinterest.
Well, before the four years ago though you should know that writing has always had a space in my life. I have always loved it and found it relaxing to be able to put words to things in my head. Almost as if I could validate my emotions myself.
So back to four years ago in the car, I kept seeing blogging pins.
You know which ones I’m talking about right? I MADE $96868768969 THIS MONTH! HERE’S THE SECRET.
Like any naive writer this was exactly what I needed. I read blog post after blog post seeing words like Bluehost, WordPress and Pinterest over and over and over. No blog post could tell me how to do it in words that I could understand, and man was it frustrating. So, the plan was tossed aside because it was way too much for me to figure out.
One year later, in a conversation with my husband, blogging came up again.
I finally asked him . . . “Why not me? Why can’t I do it too?” He looked me straight in the eye and said “You can.”
My journey began on Blogger. I was justmominit.blogspot.com and I used it like a diary. I didn’t have any social media, but I had a lot of things going on in my head and needed to give them a home. I stopped writing after only a few days because reading it back really freaked me out. I had to come to a place of understanding I had a mental illness. I was certainly not there at this point in my life. So reading some of the thoughts I was having was very uncomfortable for me.
Six months later, I wanted to try again.
But this time I was wanting to explore social media too. It took only 3 months before people in real life found it and sadly were not pleased. Here I was thinking I was doing something awesome, and expressing myself creatively, and that is definitely not how it was taken.
I deleted the entire blog.
I didn’t blog again for a few months. I felt quite lost. I had gotten so used to journaling my feelings and had come to really look forward to it.
Then, I created myrealmommydiary.blogspot.com. I was still trying to find my way and learning what was important to me. It did not take me long to see that writing about being a mom was not my passion. Sometimes I felt guilty about that, but once I was able to accept it and spend time exploring what I actually wanted to write. Which was my thoughts. The things that were going on in my head.
One day while pondering my blog the phrase thoughts within came to mind.
What a perfect phrase. The thoughtswithn me. It became a way of exploring my mental illness and advocating for mental health to become less stigmatized. I found a community that shared the same passions as I. And so Thoughts with N was born.
I’ve loved every minute of my blogging journey and am so grateful for the opportunities I’ve had, and am excited to work toward the future.
Whether you’re a regular reader or this is your first time here, thank you for being here and sharing this digital space with me.
If you blog, or have a small biz, where did the name come from?! I want to hear!
Love Always, Enn